The End .. of a Quest

I have decided to close this quest I have had to understand and apply rules of love by learning other's ways and opinions of such. I have decided to put it away and leave it for another time .. if ever. The other day when I was speaking to blue and Falon about it .. T'zuri got upset. Misunderstood. Got shoved out of peace by the content of the conversation. Today it was Falon. I do not know what or why .. I just know it is not the intention of my quest for these pieces to hurt or upset anyone at all. And that is what I seem to be doing. Starting arguments .. not discussions. And so it is time to cinch this one up and put it away.

For me the subject as well as the reality of love causes more headaches and heartaches than comfort. And I am not a masochist. I am not out to be miserable. I am not out to cause anyone else to be miserable. I will not pursue this further.

I have enough to concentrate on. My bosk .. the new kaiila foals .. the new sleen pups ... and that was just my personal life .. I had much to do as Ubar.

I was told that Silken felt the responsibility to force treatment on Polunu and at his refusal to be forced .. she enlisted the help of Saresh to hold him down. Kam assured me that he was going to take care of it .. both Silken and Saresh but I wanted to make sure that Silken knew my policy on such things.

I spoke to Silken about not forcing treatment on anyone. She did not agree with me at all and the only reason she gave me her word that she would no longer practice that way .. was because she had to. I did not want it to be like that. I did not want to put my word down without understanding. It is not my way .. but it will have to be that way because I have no choice.

Her punishment will be left to Saresh and Polunu .. and Saresh's punishment left to Kam. I will only step in if there is nothing done.

This is not a society where women have the same rights as men. Fair or not .. that is the way it is. A man has rights .. in this Tribe ... rights to his own body and his own pain and his own ideas of that.

I had the two bosk delivered to Zarina that she won in the wager with me over Kai and T'zuri's friendly little spar. It was a nice break to the monotony of the same sexual innuendos thrown around the fires and a good time was had by all .. though I imagine the two of them will be feeling the effects for a few days. And I do not expect that I will get caught in the middle of their little teasing spats any time in the near future again either.

Grin.