Of Messages and Guardianship

Kam came to the fires. I have not seen him in hands. He looked beat up and tired .. I guess we all look like that most of the time. The crazy thing is ... he told me that Tarra had left a message with him to tell me her and Garyx had left.

He told me he had other things on his mind and had not delivered it.

I told him I was displeased with the entire thing. He said it was his fault. I told him that it was Tarra's decision to not do what I asked and if he had been busy and failed to give me the message .. then her choice in messenger was faulty. And that was her fault. That yes .. I did rest some responsibility on Kam .. but not all of it.

I was a little pissy about the entire thing. I had a reason for asking her to contact me personally before she left. I had a reason for asking it to be made clear to me that Garyx's patrols were handled before he left. I did not wish to have to find out myself or to wait hands to hear it from Kam. What was lost however in the entire thing was personal .. and I could handle it. But I told Kam not to expect me to be happy about it for a bit.

Not like it was plains shattering or that I would hold it against anyone .. I was not. I was just irritated. In a couple of days I would be over it and I would have found another way around what I needed. That is what Tribe family did. They lived and worked with each other even when it was irritating.

There was however something more important I wished to speak to Kam about and I pulled him aside to ask him about Silken's guardianship. She had asked me to be released from Saresh's and put into Kam's. Now I was much more comfortable with that idea .. I have seen Kam handle Silken much better than anyone else but it would have to be with his concent of course. Kam said he wished to speak to Silken before he committed to it. That was more than understandable so I left it to them both to iron it out.

Sometimes it feels like I am climbing some great wall and it is covered in vines and every time I get any ground made one of them gives away and I am sliding back three lengths for every one made.