Blue Apology

Blue came to me with an apology. Another one. Different than the last one. I of course asked her what the apology was for .. because I always do. That said I will of course probably refrain a few times just to be unpredictable .. but in the case at hand ... I asked.

She told he she wanted to apologize for the water and for the other night with Chay. She said she was not sure what she had done to inspire Chay .. but that she was sorry for the disruption of peace at the Fires.

I did not understand why she was apologizing for the water again. We had been over it all ready. Why drag it up? Did she want to remind me why I was so displeased with her before she apologized for the lack of peace at my fires? That is counter productive in the most logical sense.

So I moved on to the other night with Chay. I told her not to offer me an empty apology. To know what she was apologizing for or to wait to apologize until she did understand. That if she offered me an apology .. for something she did not know ... it was a waste of my time.

So she said she was apologizing for causing a disruption at the fires.

I asked her if she caused it.

I was pleased that she actually seemed to think about that for some time instead of just throwing out an answer as she had been doing. When she finally spoke to me she said she guessed that she had not.

Back to square one. If she had not .. why was she apologizing for something she had not done?

I told her not to apologize to me simply to feel better about what had happened.

And I meant it. She told me she had not caused it .. so therefor I saw no need to apologize for it. If she had caused it .. I would then have investigated the reason and formulated an answer thereby accepting the apology.

At this point I do not want an apology from blue. At this point I expect one from Chay. If at some point it becomes clear that blue caused this .. and Chay takes the time to make that clear both with me and the slave ... then I shall expect an apology from blue .. as well as a pound of flesh.

But until that time .. and as long as the slave believes she did nothing wrong and I have no information otherwise ... an apology is simply a waste of my time and the only motive for that I can see is to relieve a burden that may never be relieved. I do not have time to make every slave feel better about the situations where they tangle with the free of this Tribe.

There is a lot about blue I do not understand. There is a lot about blue I have no need to get to understand. I demand pleasing service .. absolute obedience and perfect beauty. Anything deeper than that is going to take some inspiration.